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</3 i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not </3
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I'm making a new journal...I decided to start again. Theres just some things in here that are too private to show to the public and in order to make it friends only you have to delete every emtry before...
So anyway these are the people i will be adding to my new lj :D
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ___radioromance, </span>
__heylushh, </span>brienxcore, </span>candycoatedkiwi, </span>chopsticks__, </span>doodle_79, </span>livium, </span>music_isnt_dead, </span>myfirsteljay, </span>night_angel_04, </span>ol1v3r, </span>tiny_clanger, </span>xtherexisx, </span>xxbenjaminxx, </span>mrbee, </span>briefsmile__, </span>smelldeadroses
I think thats it :)
If your not on the list or i have forogotten you, just leave a comment below.
Now...to make a new account :P
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[27 Mar 2005|02:01pm] |
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BEEP! Please leave your name and why you want to be added in a comment...Thank you!
XO.
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[25 Mar 2005|07:41am] |
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I don't achually know when i'm meeting mainy today... he was at a jimmyeatworld gig so i couldent get hold of him eitherrr
Anyway i've woken up way too early this morning, its cos i'm used to getting up at 6:!5 and its a changeee....bleughhh!
Not much to say, feel like i'm going back to school on monday...got 3 weeks wooooooooooo
YAY.
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[24 Mar 2005|07:29pm] |
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wow i havent done alot today :P
Woke up. Watched tv. Computer &courseworks. Films on tv. Eat. Took a nice warm bath and came back on the computer.
So tomorrow i'm meeting mainyo again :) Very excited but nervous at the same timeee! Hopefully this feeling will go...and i'm not alowd to go to his house. pshhtttt. So anyway i'm hoping tomorrow will go even better than it did on sunday!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
<3
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[22 Mar 2005|07:04am] |
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I am soo happpy! I could achually cry. Well i have. Yesterday me and Polly were in the computer room at break and mainy set me the cutest email evarr. I don't want to post it. But all i can say was that it was so cute and made me feel so loved. I did cry. I havent been this happy in ages. I havent felt so loved. I have found the part of me that was broken all along (cheese on toast.)
So yeah i made Polly cry too haha :P Today is the last full day of school and then tomorrow we break up!!! Another reason to be happy! And i'm looking forward to my brothers 18th! :D
God how i fucking hate Mr. Barlow (geography teacher) what a fucking perv he is and he said i needed special help cos i couldent revise. WHAT A CUNT.
So yeah not much has happened but just thought i would update anyways :)
<3
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[20 Mar 2005|09:21pm] |
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OMG. i just wrote this fucking entry and then it deleted itself 0.0
Anyway. TODAY WAS WOW.
First i met nicky and we walked around, but i couldent be bothered to get jeans, cos i felt faint...don't know why :( But then we walked around...but i felt selfish cos all i was saying was 'ahhhh nicky im nervous' and i bet she got fucking sick of hearing it! Now i feel bad :(
Then we went to waterstones and i watched out the top window for Mainyo haha :P When he came i think i almost had a panic attack haha :P Then i rang him and said look up and so he did and saw me and bounded up the stairs and quickly threw my gum to nicky and said hi. but he just messed my hair up haha.
Then we went to lizzy g and sat on a bench and chatted and he kept on knudging me and tickling me and poking me haha. Was funnyyy :P Anyhoo then he wanted to go to woolworths to get some gum and water and ...i dont know why i'm saying all this but i loved today :) So then we walked back to lizzy g and sat on the grass and chatted and the we kepy on kissing and cuddling :) I havent felt so loved in ages :)
It was the nicest day in ages. Thanks you mainyo :)
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[20 Mar 2005|07:55am] |
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woah. I havent been this nervous since meeting miles which was beginning of december. I like and hate this feeling and the same time, its a love feeling but also a ahhhh what if we don't talk feeling!
I want to meet him i do. Its just AH.
Aparently dani was saying mean things about me at that gig last night. What a bitch. I've never done anything to her. Dori said she called me, a wannabe, and that guys only like me cos i'm nice to them. I hope she wasent implying that i was a whore. Cos from what i hear i think she's that. oooh harsh words i know but i just want to slap her. Why does she have to be so mean. Aparently the way she was towards me was mild. ¬_¬
So yeah i'm as scared as fuck to meet mainyo. But i am gonna do it, *fingers crossed*
<3
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[19 Mar 2005|09:24pm] |
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well i can surely say today has been the weirdest day in zonks o.0
I dont know why or how. Well i do but well ok. I'll start from beginning.
Got up early, had sore throat and didn't feel too well. Then realised i was meeting sophie and dori at 11:00 which i knew i couldent make. Then i realised that i had tons of coursework to do, so i had to cancel :( wouldent of been able to make it to the gig either :(
So i did my 6 pages of coursework which took me hours, and watched a bit of tv, went on the internet and things, was quite relaxing but also stressful :\
Then i was talking to mainyo and things and we got chatting and i fancie him SO much *grins* and i think he likes me tooo :) Thing is miles lied to us today :\ which i am not happy about :( mainy says they are all mean to him :( poor mainyo
But anywayyy, i'm meeting nicky for an hour tomorrows and then mainyoooo :)
ahh im nervous
LOVE.
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[19 Mar 2005|02:36pm] |
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I just made this :)
HAR.
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| thanks for stopping by the river |
[19 Mar 2005|08:40am] |
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meh. meant to be meeting sophie and dori todays. I have so much coursework to do though :( sophie wants to meet me at 11:00 but i really dont think i'm going to be able to make it :( maybe i'll just stay at home, i mean theres always the easter. and mum says its best i stay home. hmm i want to go though. hmmm i'll text sophie laters.
not much to say apart from got my haircut!
( click for the picceh )
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[17 Mar 2005|08:36pm] |
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for art i'm making a pot which is quite big and the themes art deco, so i am painting the background dark blue to represent an eye and then putting on loads of tear dropped shapes to represent tears. Souns silly but i thought it would turn out quite cool :)
Katie's right. That song she found is very nice indeed, makes me teary tooo
we had day with a difference today, made me think about things quite alot. I guess today has been one big emotional day. I don't know why but it just has :(
getting my haircut tomorrows.... having this done:
:D not the clothes haha just the hair :)
<3
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[17 Mar 2005|07:03am] |
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so we have another non uniform day. hurrah. its cos we have a weird thing called A day with a difference at school and you get to miss lessons to do fun stuffs. well noit really fun but ahh well.
MEH. i'm in a bad mood, don't know why.
Alex asked miles for me whether i still had a chance with him. He replied with:
: Gentlemen : don't : ask : questions : says:
go out with me? what no, course not, atm things are running
smoothly for me, i dont rele want a gf atm, but she is a
class A girl, if i was looking for a gf then shed be 1st
asked, tell her not to worry, i dont like it when shes
upset
Ok so he dosen't want a gf but by the time he will i bet he wont like me anymore :(
*sigh*
i give up.
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[16 Mar 2005|06:30pm] |
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I feel like I'm so irritated! that jerk smelldeadroses gone and said that I got caught talking to xxbenjaminxx and talking crap about katiecrouch. If I get my hands on them I'm going 2 whup asses!
What sucks is that I gave everybody my wishlist of computer hardware for my birfday, but nobody bought me anything :-(.
And also I don't know why mrbee went all psycho over me and ol1v3r having a little fun.
Oh yeah. Why does simonjcrouch keep posting images in their journal?! I keep telling them I'm on a modem! I'm going to unfriend them to teach them a lesson!!!!!!!!!!
This entry automatically generated by the <a href='http://triggur.org/ljdrama/'>LJ Drama Generator</a>!
Getting my haircut on Friday very excited :D
XO.
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[15 Mar 2005|05:43pm] |
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how i spent my saturday night (only just uploaded picehs) hehe :P
( wooohoo )
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[14 Mar 2005|07:05pm] |
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So whats happened over the weekend. Not much i can achually say.
Saturday: Shopped in bath and got some amazing shoes! They are pink and black converse type thingys, and they are sooo yummy, i'll add a picture but i think my camera and mp3 player have been left at school, stoopidly :\ ooh and some new bras, haha :P
Sunday: was very bored and just rested.
Now i'm annoyed cos shelley is being stressy on msn, and grrrrr we have english coursework over easter :( its meant to be holidays and rest not more work, or we might aswell just be at school the whole time. :(
My life is achually so boring :(
1. I need to get a saturday job.
2. I need to stop being so selfish and pooey and argh i hate it.
3. I need a haircut!
4. I just want to look good, why do others look good in what they wear and not me :(
5. I'm just so lonely, i want a boyfriend :(
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[12 Mar 2005|09:04am] |
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going to bath todayyyy :) i'm really excited cos i *heart* shopping! yayy new clothes, new shoes newww yummy stuff.
Fee issent coming now, cos her mum was being silly about her going back on the train. Anyway mum had some bad news last night, i'm not going to say it. all i can say is its very upsetting. I don't know why or how its happened but yeah :(
Having my haircut this weeeek, hmm i don't know how to get it cut, i was thinking short and emo with a fringe on the side. then later on i'll color it a bit. but any ideas?
welll, thats it, update maybe monday cos not sure whether jack's still blocked me from computer. so yeah :)
XO.
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[11 Mar 2005|07:13am] |
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FUCK!
It's non uniform day today in aid of red nose dayy. hmmmm i bet everyone is going to dress up to look the best and beat everyone else. and theres me looking the odd one out for the 8978937 time! I am so pissed off. my hair is so fucking annoying. My dad hasent rung up the hairdressers so i know CANT get it cut tonight.
My hoody is too big and i want to shrink it. Fee may not be able to come at the gig on saturday which i REALLY wanted to go too and now i may not be able too. I feel ugly fat and BLEUGH.
WHY CANT SOMETHING JUST GO FUCKING RIGHT FOR ONCE!
*sweeps hair back for the 48754875 time*
GR.
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[10 Mar 2005|09:32pm] |
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i remember when he used to look at my conversations in that way too...i guess he's moved on.
and its time for me to do the same too.
i need sleep.
</3
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[10 Mar 2005|05:54pm] |
my hoody came my hoody came *dances*
afraid its too big though :\ ahh well haha
<3
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[10 Mar 2005|07:19am] |
is my journal friends only now? im not sure :\
hehe <3
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